Time Travel

What will you do if you can travel back in time? A friend of mine asked this question to me. Before I gave my answer, he would describe on how he will change his whole life by travelling back to the past.

It was fun to imagine.

One would go back in time and maybe instead of being a boring medical student, maybe he/she could be a genius physics student with multiple dean list and awards every year.

One would go back and change his/her decision so that he/she would not lose a friendship.

One would go back and I instead being one of the nerd guys in class, he/she could be the most famous girl in town.

Every day, we have a lot of decision to do. Up until now, I am 23 years old and I know that in my past, I made thousand of decision. It is like a puzzle. A game, once you step forward, you cannot go back.

After a long list of what people are going to do when they can travel through time, the question goes to me. What will I do?

What will I do if I can travel back in time. It is so fun to imagine however, I was pretty shocked when my friend ask me this question, and I came with a silent answer. Silent. I could not think of a thing that I want to change in my past. It seem that every decision I have made, I never regret it and I never want to change it even if I could.

How strange am I? I was so excited to answer the question but I do not have an answer to it.  What did I do wrong in the past? A lot. Which one do you regret? None. Which one you want to change even if you don't regret it? None.

In the end, I can't think of an answer.

I failed so many times but I do not want to change that because my failure that make me here today still struggling for the best. I lost friends but I do not want to change that because I lost friend because of a reason, it would be disastrous if I continue with it. I made a mistake, but from it I learn. I don't have anything to change.

The question is so fun and interesting, alas, I don't have answer to it.

I guess, if you do have thousand thing you regret, so what is the point of living... haha.

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Everyone deserves their just deserts.

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I forgot my patient.

The most shameful thing happen to me today.

It is actually started last week when i clerk this patient and i found out that she have relatives somewhere in my hometown and she keeps telling me that she know my family. Maybe she made a mistake however, i do realize that she did have relatives in my village. So i sit and spend some more time with her talking about my family and village. It has been a long time since I use my Brunei dialect so i have fun chattering with her.

And today, as usual i woke up at 5.45 am, prepare myself to go to the hospital, took some dull rushing breakfast, then i was there in the hospital early in the morning. full with my fully equipped medical student gear consist of stethoscope, log book, a pen torch, a few blank paper as a clerking sheets, and i walk to the ward confident to clerk patient. And the first room i went is my usual room that has been allocated to me. The first patient i saw was a lady sitting on the bed. I quickly approach to her and ask her name. She gave me her name. I start talking to her lightly and in quarter way of our conversation, she suddenly said, " I think my son really know your family. My son working in Labuan hospital".

Now i am feeling so awkward. Now i realize that i am clerking the same patient i have clerked last week. patient which i spent extra times because she kind of knew my family. I am totally ****. How could I? She remember me but i don't remember her. it was so rude of me.

I don't know why i could not easily remember a person face. it was hard to me. I hardly remember the face of all my patient, except a few of them. Since a long time ago, there are a lot of people who know me but i could not remember them. This problem continue until now.

I don't know what to say to that lady. Luckily i have this skill of rapidly changing my status from a total stranger to become a close friend, fakely, but effectively. So i did. I did talk with the patient again.

However, at the exact momment i am writing this entry, i am trying to remember that patient face again, but i could not. I guess i have to live with this 'disability'. At least i did try to remember them. At least i remember their problem. I guess i can live with that.

My 5 years laptop.

This is my 5 years old laptop. Anyone interested?

Anti traditional Medicine

Today i woke up early and went to Gaya Street. Gaya Sreet is a place somewhere in Kota Kinabalu and every sunday, a big 'tamu' (). It was nice to be there in sunday morning, you could buy most of the thing that you want from cloth, to local craft, to fruits, cakes and everything. You can also buy pets such as cats, hamster or dogs. Cat is quite expensive. The cheapest one cost rm360 (pure breed siamest cat).

During my visit there, i also found a lot of traditional medicine sold by different stall and almost all claimed that their product is the cure of everything. There is one stall promoting a bottle of dark fluid to me and claimed that the fluid can lower your blood pressure and cure many other disease. When asked about how it could do such thing, the girl promoter told that the fluid will cause increase in inside body temperature and this suppose to bring benefit to you, or is it?

Lot of people attentively listening to the explanation. On what basis that thing could lower blood pressure and cure disease? Did they investigate it in the lab? I guess looking from the bottle, it is only a recycled bottle, nothing special about it. No FDA or maybe KKM approval. But still, people would listen to it.

Try to count in our country, how many people belief traditional medicine, and how many people belief modern medicine. I guess, more people would belief traditional medicine. In my experience, a lot of people i've met, most of them is do not trust modern medicine.

Why this happen? Mainly because education. Do you realize how hard you would explain the mechanism of beta blocker to reduce blood pressure? A medical school lecture would take one hour to describe it and many medical student do not understand anything at all after the lecture. Not until they revise it, read it a couple more times before they get it.

Compare to traditional medicine, it is always simple. Explanation like " this water will increase your body temperature and make you sweat, and all the disease will come out from your body", is so simple for everyone to understand. No need one hour to make a normal person nod their head and could not agree more.

However, simple explanation does not reflect the benefit or the harm of a medication. What makes modern medicine unpopular is, they always have side effect compare to traditional medicine. Do you ever heard a traditional medicine have a major side effect that can make you die? Never even though they do. But modern medicine, you will always found at the back of the bottle or whatever, regarding the side effect and contraindication.

I am not a person who are totally anti with traditional medicine. I would be fair. But traditional medicine supposed to be the last resort for everything. But more and more people are going to traditional medicine first before going to hospital. And when this happen, they always in the late stage and who would take the blame, those people on modern medicine site (doctors, nurse, and the whole hospital).

Hippocrates II is the father of medicine. If this greek man does not exist in this world, we would suffer today. Medicine created by him making us survive until today. Make us feel safe in combating trillions of bacteria and virus that share the same earth with us.

If you look back to those early day where medicine is created, do you think that hippocrates suddenly have an idea and make a medication out of nowhere. No. basically, medicine exist since long time before hippocrates was born. What he do is so simple, he argue regarding disease cause by God punishment and bad spirit that was believed by people before him. Even his grandfather hippocrates I use this this kind of medicine which today are known as traditional medicine. Hippocrates divide religion and spiritual belief from medicine. Since that day, medicine was born. That is the basic.

So if we look at the traditional medicine nowadays, it is actually the remnant of early medicine that is used by people before hippocrates was born. I guess traditional medicine will bring you nowhere. Trust me.

No matter how many times i say this, most people will always keep their fixed belief regarding spiritual thing such as ghost, semangat, and demons.

i have read a book written by a modern muslim scholar earlier this year saying that what is mean by "perkara ghaib"in Koran is actually describing about heaven and hell and world after death. it also reflect the unknown thing that is really exist around us such as genetic technology and medicine ( as you all know only 10% of medical knowledge is understandable until today). So this is what is meant by perkara ghaib. However, muslim would take a more simple route, believing that perkara ghaib is demons, spirit, and anything similar to it. We will get nowhere. Nowhere with this fixed belief.

Too Phat Review

For the new generation of Malaysia Hip Hop, this is a little bit info on how Hip Hop scene really happen here in Malaysia. haha. I just want to write this entry as a tribute to Too Phat. I guess now i can call them one of the best rappers here in Malaysia and still they is. A little story on how i discover them.

Whuttadilly?

I never knew about this album. I guess i don't need to know about it. I only know that there are 3 songs which is nice in this album which is Jezzebelle, Too Phat Baby and Bomoh. But during that time, Hip Hop was still an underground culture. Know one is really paying attention to this album

Plan B

This is the point where i started to discover Too Phat. I remember that i was in Form 1 or 2 when i first listen to 'Anak Ayam' ( the classic hit single from Too Phat). They were nice and so immature at that time. However, i love it because i was too, an immature. So i guess the tune is really synchronize with me. It was easy to accept their music into my life and my cerebral cortex. Lot of 'classiczz' song from Too phat are in this album. This range from Boogie down, Anak ayam, and Just A friend. The latter two become a big hit in Malaysia. I love Just a Friend because the story crafted in that song was fantastic and humorous.

In fact, this is the first CD i ever bought in my life. When this album out, it was still the tape/cassette era. However, i already have my first CD player/CD walkman at that time so i bought Plan B CD and i played it hundred times. I remember all the song in it.

Other classic song in this allbum are illion, It's on you, and wanna battle. All of this songs featured great Malaysia and Singapore hip hop artist nowadays (but unknown during that time) such as Teh Tarik Crew, Reefa, and other so called Phat Family member. Platinum edition of this album includes Clap to This and The Last Song which is also nice to hear.

360

This is the turning point of Too Phat. From their successful Plan B to become more successful. This album shocked me the first time i listen to it. Even my mother who does not know anything about Hip Hop said that this album is 'bagus and sedap didengar'. Even though not all song are that good but this album include 2 songs that everyone will remember until today which is Just A lil Bit and Alhamdullilah. Alhamdullilah is the best song ever by Too Phat. It was the song which is called by many as the Culture-shifiting song. As Stan by Eminem change the way of hip hop in the west, this song by too phat change the course of hip hop in the east.

Alhamdullilah is beautifully crafted hip hop song and i guess the first hip hop song which combine the element of Nasyid (muslim religious song) into one inseparable tune which ring to our ear for a very long time until now. After this song was released, a lot of hip hop artists in Malaysia start to use this formula and make one on their own. Now Nasyid + hip hop is so common in Malaysia because of this song. Years before this song was released, no one ever think that hip hop can be religious.

Just A Lil Bit featured Warren G from America and the beat for this song is also above expectation.

360 degree album from Too Phat is my 17th birhday gift ( or is it 16th).

Rebirth & Reality

This is by far the last album by Too Phat after their long hiatus after 360. I bought this album for myself. Compare to 360, this album is a little quiet and not much promotion was done for this album. And many called it failure as it does not sell much as before.

However, if i have to choose, i will choose this album as the best from Too Phat.

The best song in this album is Dua Dunia which featured Siti Nurhaliza, the best Malaysian singer up to date. Song was nice but frustrating to Siti Nurhaliza fans as Siti only sing the chorus part of this song and only a bit. Maybe those people does not understand how hip hop song is.

Other great song includes KL, Snap, & How Me Seksi. What i like in this album is, Too Phat look really matured in term of their lyrics, their sentences, their pronouncation. So clear and easy to catch compare to before. The arrangement and the quality of the songs is remarkable.

I would choose this album as the best of Too Phat. Previously Too Phat would rely much on remix and sample song but in this album, they start it fresh. Fresh tune from Too Phat.

Their lyrics are more meaningful in this album as in Dua Dunia, Forgot My Lyrics, KL, and other songs. By listening to this album, you would understand the real Too Phat rather than understanding the hip hop culture in malaysia as they did much in their previous album. The album is more personal to their view as Too Phat and not only highlighting the culture itself. At this point i initially think that Too Phat will become more successful in the future.

however, that is it. No more album from them. Now they are going solo. I guess Malique album entitled Ok! is phenomenon. But Joe Flizzow is a little slow to catch it. I guess if they both work in a same album again, it will be superb.

End.